I can’t believe it has already been a year since you left us. I think about you all the time. It still hits me in the face over and over again. I know that you are in a much better place. A place where you can breathe easily and are in no pain, but it doesn’t make me miss you less, or the pain any less real.
I think often about how I wish I had spent more time with you before leaving Maine. How I should have called more often, and should have spent time on skype calls with you and Mema. My heart aches to be able to change how things unraveled, but I can’t. I’m just incredibly grateful to have been able to see you before you left us.
I think one thing that hurts the most right now is that I won’t be able to see you meet your first great grandchild, but then I think about how you are probably up there in Heaven with little Harper Patience, and it makes me smile. I also would like to think that you are helping God pick out the soul of our little one. (Sometimes I wish you guys would hurry up and decide!) but I know that you will pick the exact right little soul for us.
I can’t wait to be able to see you again Pepa. Someday it will happen, and until then I will be thinking about you.
All my love to you Peeps,
Your Jennafer ❤