Father’s Day?

Father’s Day Abba’s Day

The Mrs and I have decided that we would celebrate her on Mother’s day – seemed fitting as the bio mom of our hopefully soon to be gayby; and that we would celebrate me on Father’s Day, or around our house it will be known as Abba’s day as that is what I will be called. 🙂

This year I was pretty mopey as had things gone as planned it would have been my first Abba’s day with our precious little one. Unfortunately that didn’t happen. It was also the first Father’s Day without my Pepa and that was hard 😦

The day was uneventful since I slept all day and went to work at 6pm for my usual graveyard shift. All in all it wasn’t a terrible day really, just me being mopey. Maybe this time next year we will have a bobble headed infant. ❤


The Human Experience

Everyone has it: The human experience. So what is it? It’s different for everyone. It is in the moments and the breaths that we take that our character is made. However it is in those moments also that can make us or break us.

Those moments, however fleeting, shape us into doctors, lawyers, nurses, teachers etc. Sometimes into thieves, rapists, murderers, users and abusers. Each moment needs to be contemplated, examined, for it is how was take these moments and turn them into who we want to be as a human beings.

I know not everyone is religious, but I am. I am a Christian, and I believe that everything happens for a reason, a part of Gods plan if you will. I have always had the faith that God won’t give us more than we can handle, and if we try to do the right thing and try to take care of ourselves He will never let us down. He will always be there with open and loving arms.

All this being said I wish you all the best of luck on your journey, and remember that its is all apart of the human experience. It may not always be happy and glamorous, but there are always those out there you can reach out to. Don’t think you are in this alone, you aren’t, you will always have someone there if you just reach out.


I have been thinking about this lately, especially the thoughts that my Pepa won’t get to meet his great grandchild when the time comes. He won’t be making the memories that I got with him as a child and young adult. I’ve been missing him a lot lately, and I know that death is all apart of the human experience, but it doesn’t make it hurt less.

Without death how would we appreciate life? Without death how would be learn to love and cherish one another? Without death where would we be? In all honesty I don’t know the answer, and I don’t think there will be an answer in this lifetime of mine. All I do know is that this thing we call the human experience has so many ups and downs and twists and turns; and some day, my human experience will end. I can only hope that I will have lived my life in such a way that I will be fondly remembered and missed for the person that I was.

Going Crunchy

Well, I think it’s official, we’re going “crunchy”. Not only are we planning on cloth diapering, but I have officially made the switch over to cloth pads. It’s incredible how much more comfortable they are! Not sure if I can convince the wife to make the switch over to cloth TP, but we’ll see. I know it may seem silly, but honestly, it saves SO much money! With the nice weather I’m able to hang dry things, so even an extra load of laundry a week isn’t terrible.

In other news, we met with or fertility nurse to get some preliminary blood work going to see where Jess is at. Hopefully things are good. Sadly its out of pocket expenses, but having 50% coverage is more than many get so we must count our blessings there. If all is well hormonally then we go in laproscopically and make sure her tubes are clear of any obstructions. That will be about $400… A bit of an expense, but manageable and worth it in the end.

Currently on try number 11. I can’t believe it has been a year! Oh man what a fucking year it’s been too! So many ups and downs. Trying to conceive… who knew it could be so hard!